The beginning...

I am obsessed with food and how it affects my body. There. I said it. I have a problem. I think admitting it right now to you (and by you I mean, myself) it finally feels like a reality. Seeing the heaviness of my issues in print really helps. I hope.

From pre-pubescent binging to now, I have always had this, um, "obstacle." I had felt I was fat, ugly, and worthless for almost two decades... and to be honest... I'm tired of it. I'm ready for it all to end. Okay, I admit I've said those exact words before... a lot. But, starting over is all part of being human... or so I'm telling myself.

So, here I am. At the beginning again... an umpteenth restart of a journey I've traveled for as long as I can fully remember.